All that I have lost…

I am reposting previous publication from the past for many reasons, one of which is that although these events happened a few years ago, these writings might find relevance for a soul who is going through a though time.

In the recent days, i have lived through the most painful experience of my life.

I lost everything.

I lost my wife.

I lost the very things that were the foundation of my happiness: love and family.

I have shed more tears in a few days than i thought i could in a lifetime. And yet… after losing everything, i’m still here.

Once the pain subsided, once the tears have dried, I’m still here.

I have changed. Deep inside, i feel a new sense of calmness, a new strength. I own my happiness.

I have this joy inside me and even through the sorrow, this light still shines. There is still a lot of love in me.

For everything i have lost… i have also gained a few beautiful things. I have discovered that great friendship and family are most precious during hardship.

And I have been offered an unexpected gift: freedom.

In the last decade, my life has been very predictable.

Today, my life is like a white canvas on which I can paint anything using the colors of my own choosing.

Tomorrow will bring new challenges and new adventures. The future will bring a lot of love and joy but i know that suffering is an inevitable part of life.

I’m ready for this new existence, I do not fear life, i appreciate every moment of it, the good and the bad.

I have one conviction: everything happens for a reason.

To my parents, brothers, friends, colleagues and all those that have been there for me in this unfortunate adventure, I will never say it enough: THANK YOU.

Original post Facebook, August 2015